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  For David, Lochlin, Aidan, and Brendan

  With all my love

  ACKNOWLEDGMENTS

  I was in kindergarten when I decided I wanted to be an author. My life took a few twists and turns, but I never gave up on that mystical, magical dream. As I sit here and type these words, I am struck by a sense of humility, wonder, and awe. I am so grateful to be here, but I didn’t do it alone. I’ve met some wonderful people along the way who were instrumental in helping me achieve my dreams.

  I’d like to thank my agent, the incomparable Margaret Bail, who dared to take a look at an abysmal first draft, and saw enough promise in that jumbled mass of words to sign me. You’ve become a wonderful friend and mentor. Words cannot begin to express my gratitude.

  To Barbara Rogan, Barbara Kyle, the wonderful staff at the Editorial Department, and Sherry Hinman, my fantastic editor. Thank you for wading through the early drafts and helping to shape and hone a rough, jagged manuscript into something polished and bright with promise.

  To my incredible publisher, St. Martin’s Press. To my editors, Toni Kirkpatrick and Jennifer Letwack, who took a chance on a debut novelist and guided me with their expertise and unwavering support. To Jessica Preeg, Angela Craft, and everyone else behind the scenes who rallied together to make Avelynn a success. Thank you for your confidence and trust. I am thrilled to be part of such a passionate and dedicated team.

  To the amazing B7: A. B. Funkhauser, Susan Croft, Connie Di Pietro, Ann Dulhanty, Yvonne Hess, and Rachael Stapleton. You pushed, questioned, probed, and prodded, exposing plot holes, character flaws, and pacing black holes. Your dedication, support, and friendship mean the world to me. Thank you.

  To the wonderful teachers and peers I’ve met through the WCDR, proving writing doesn’t have to be a solitary act. Thank you for reaching out and enveloping me in a community of camaraderie and creativity.

  To each and every one of my yoga students. You have touched my life in ways I could never have imagined. Thank you for your continued support.

  To Carol and Bruce. Thank you for setting me on this wonderful path. To my friends old and new. Thank you for letting me drift off in conversations to stare out the window, for being my sounding boards, for standing by me during the long road to publication, and for understanding when I went AWOL.

  To David, who told me to swing for the fences. You are my greatest champion, my dearest friend, and my one true love. To Lochlin, Aidan, and Brendan. You fill my life with endless joy and light. I am so proud of you. Thank you for your patience, support, and unconditional love. I love you all so very much.

  Despite the world conspiring against her, Avelynn follows her heart and refuses to give up. Don’t let anyone keep you from living your most passionate life. Do what makes you happy. Never give up on your mystical, magical dreams.

  In gratitude,

  Marissa xo

  ONE

  SOMERSET, ENGLAND

  NOVEMBER 869

  Sigberht gripped the hilt of his sword, and my heart quickened.

  “Cut off his hand, lord,” he said.

  The boy’s face waxed ashen, his hands kneading the front of his threadbare tunic. Only eleven summers old, he should have been out chasing chickens or helping his mother collect firewood for the coming winter.

  Council was held once a year, and petitioners had been coming and going all day long, pleading their cases to my father, the Earl of Somerset. Sigberht, my father’s reeve, was on hand to marshal out punishment. Almost everyone from the village was present, spectators and claimants alike crammed into my father’s timber hall.

  I had been silent, beyond the occasional grumble of dissent, and duly recorded each case and its judgment, but this last quarrel broke my tolerance. I put down my quill and rose, the hem of my dress brushing the freshly laid rushes underfoot.

  I turned an appeal to my father. “The boy is merely a puppet.”

  My father sat in the lord’s chair high upon the raised dais, his eyes hooded beneath waves of honey-blond hair, his face unreadable.

  Sigberht stormed forward. “Surely Avelynn would be better suited to the weaving shed,” he hissed. “Council is no place for a woman.”

  I scowled at him. “Apparently, nor is it a place for justice or common sense.”

  “Peace, you two.” My father’s tone was light, but the warning loomed heavy between us.

  Sigberht’s grip tightened on his sword. “The law is clear. Let me cut off the boy’s hand.”

  “If anyone should be punished, it should be the tanner, not his son,” I said.

  “Your daughter needs a tighter leash, lord,” someone yelled from the back of the hall, and was rewarded with a round of laughter.

  Slaves scurried about with clay pitchers filled with mead, and the drink flowed into waiting bone horns. The central hearth, a long, narrow trough dug into the packed-dirt floor, burned bright, filling the hall with smoke and heat. A hole cut into the roof allowed some of the smoke to escape. The rest hovered over the crowd, filling the spaces between the large beams overhead. There were no windows, and shadows were deep. Pinpricks of light flickered from oil lamps suspended from the ceiling, and iron candle trees, scattered about the large open hall, sputtered in the constant drafts.

  The tanner, his tunic smeared and reeking of dung—the perfume of his trade—addressed my father. “I swear my innocence.”

  “And who supports your claim?” Sigberht’s grip on his sword never loosened.

  “My brother.”

  A round, squat man stepped clear of the press, wringing a wool cap in his hands. “I stand up for my brother and his son, lord.”

  “You are a farmer?” my father asked.

  “Yes, my lord.”

  I frowned. Judgment was made based on personal worth. The more status you held, the more influence your word carried. Though the farmer was a freeman, his oath would not carry much weight.

  Eager to strike down the tanner’s weak defenses, my father’s master of arms approached the dais. Taller and thicker than most men, Wulfric looked like a bear. His shaggy mane and beard were blacker than pitch, and his eyes were hard and implacable. “Both my brother and I have seen your bastard lead your pigs into my keep.” He spat at the tanner’s feet. “The dog has been doing this all year, my lord. His pigs have grown fat off my land.”

  Wulfric and his brother, Leofric, were both warriors in my father’s household guard. In a game of power and oaths, Wulfric had just won.

  Sigberht withdrew his sword from its scabbard and grabbed the child’s arm, hauling him toward the door.

  The boy’s eyes, as wide as a snared fawn’s, pleaded with the cold, impassive stare of his father. He was trying to be brave, but a stray tear charted a wayward path through the grime on his cheek.

  “Wait.” I rushed forward. “I offer an alternative.”

  The hard set of my father’s jaw warned of his abating patience.

  “The boy will be
twelve summers old, of age to hold a sword on his next birth day. Let Wulfric claim two swine instead, one for each of the boy’s hands.”

  “I’ve only the five swine, lord. The boy will live with one hand,” the tanner pleaded.

  “What say you, Wulfric?” my father asked.

  “That’s fair compensation, lord.”

  “Done.” My father waved them both away, ignoring the tanner’s protests, and beckoned me closer.

  I trudged the remaining few steps between us and stopped at his side. His head turned, but his eyes remained fixed on the crowded room. “The next word you speak, Avelynn, will see you bent over that bench, my belt your justice for all present to see. Am I understood?”

  I nodded and sat back down, picking up my quill, my palms sweaty. After that small victory, I was not inclined to push my father further.

  Sigberht addressed the crowd. “Demas of Wareham, nephew of the late Bishop Ealhstan, step forward and state your business.”

  Bishop Ealhstan had been an arrogant, dour little man, constantly voicing bleak Christian rhetoric. I never did have much patience for him or his litanies. I studied his nephew with curious interest.

  He was tall and lean, not a strand of sleek black hair out of place, and his complexion was darker than any of the men in the village. He looked almost Saracen, exotic. His tunic and trousers were made from light brown wool, simple and unadorned, but he wore a purple cloak attached at his shoulder by a magnificent gold brooch. He made his way to the dais.

  “Lord Eanwulf,” he said, bowing to my father. “I’ve come to ask for your daughter’s hand in marriage.”

  My quill floated to the floor.

  * * *

  I stomped over to a barrel of strong fruit wine, pried the lid off the cask, grabbed a cup, and ladled myself a good measure.

  My father sat on a bench nestled up to the central hearth, his gray-blue eyes regarding me. “You are seventeen and unmarried, Avelynn. It is time you were wed.” He straightened the front of his tunic. “Demas of Wareham comes from a respectable and wealthy family. He is a good match for you, and he has offered a generous bride price.”

  Ten generations ago, when the Goddess ruled the land, a woman was free to choose her mate, even casting him aside if the whim overtook her. But when the Christian church grappled England to her knees, a woman’s rights began to vanish. I could own land, and my oath was respected, but decisions such as marriage were at the sole discretion of my father.

  I walked back to the fire. Half a dozen small cakes of bread were browning nicely in the raked coals at the far end of the long, narrow pit. The comforting scent infused the air of my small wattle-and-daub cottage. My stomach growled.

  “When you married Mother, did her interests affect you? Or could you have sat idly by and seen her married off to someone else just because he was wealthy or respectable? Or because he bribed you with a fat purse?”

  “Mind your tongue, child.” He grabbed my arm and pulled me to my feet. “You are not too old to be brought to heel.”

  I barely came to the middle of his chest, but that didn’t stop me from testing him.

  “God help me, Avelynn, you are as stubborn as your mother.” And just like that, with the invocation of her specter into the room, he softened and let go of my arm. “Every day you look more like her.”

  I didn’t think so. Where her hair had been dark and curly, mine resembled my father’s locks, though mine trailed to the backs of my knees. I did have her icy-blue eyes and full lips, which were obstinately set at the moment.

  “It is for her sake that I do not blister your ass.” He dropped his hand from his leather belt.

  “But I only want what she had. I want love and a man who will respect and honor me. Why is that not good enough for me? Why do you want me to be unhappy?”

  “I do not want you to be unhappy.”

  “Then why do you insist on pushing me into the arms of a stranger?”

  “I have given you leave for more than four years to make a choice. You have refused every suitor’s attention. What father has given a daughter so much? You have been greatly spoilt, and I have been interminably patient. But your time is up.”

  “I will marry only when I’m in love. You cannot tell me who to love.”

  “You are right, Avelynn. I cannot tell you who to love, but on the other matter you are gravely mistaken, for I can tell you who and when you will marry. And I have decided to accept Demas’s suit.” He opened the door and stepped outside. “Demas will call later this afternoon. And you, my daughter, will be agreeable and charming.”

  I stood there frozen, rooted to the ground.

  “Next fall, whether you like it or not, you will be married.”

  The door slammed shut. The veil of bravado drained from my body, and my legs became two limp strands of seaweed. I staggered backward and collapsed onto the nearest bench.

  Dear gods, how had this happened? One moment I had proven myself equal to the men at council, even swaying my father’s vote. The next, I was as insignificant as an ant underfoot. I stared at the door’s weathered planks. Demas wasn’t even a Saxon name.

  There was a soft rap at the door. I sat up straight and wiped away all evidence of tears with the backs of my hands.

  As old and wizened as the wrinkled oak trees he so admired, Bertram was my father’s chamberlain, and my most noble tutor. He took one look at my face and nodded, as if affirming something, and then sat on the bench beside me.

  “How?” I asked, looking up into his gentle blue eyes. “How could he do this to me?”

  “His actions are not meant to be cruel. The Vikings have marched into East Anglia. He only wants you safe.”

  “Safe.” I huffed. England was divided into several powerful kingdoms, each land ruled by its own king, governed by its own laws. Our village, Wedmore, was nestled deep in the heart of the Somerset Levels, on the western coast of Wessex—seven days’ ride from East Anglia. “I’m protected here, now. He would never let anyone harm me. Who else could offer me such security?”

  “Your father lost your mother, Avelynn, and there was nothing he could do—he couldn’t save her, couldn’t protect her, and he cannot bear to lose you, too. Your father would see you safely away from Somerset.”

  “So he wishes to see me shipped off to be someone else’s responsibility, someone else’s problem?” I started pacing the floor but stopped and stared at the bread. Forgotten, the bottoms had turned to charcoal. I grabbed my iron tongs and retrieved them from further destruction. “My mother died in childbirth. No man can protect against that.”

  “As far as your father is concerned, it was his seed that made the stillborn child grow in her belly. And therefore, in his mind, it was his fault—he was the cause of her death.”

  I gaped at him.

  He nodded. “A man’s pride is a haughty and pretentious thing. While only the gods and Goddess know each man, woman, and child’s time and circumstances of death, when it comes to someone he loves, a man will inevitably blame himself for not being able to prevent it.”

  “But that makes absolutely no sense.”

  “When it comes to love, pet, very little makes sense.”

  I sat down and leaned against the wall. My head hit the wooden post with a soft thump. The smoke from the fire swirled and threaded up through the small hole in the roof until it escaped into the ether beyond.

  Was the Goddess watching me? “What am I to do, then?” I said, looking beyond the rising smoke. I wasn’t sure who I was asking, the Goddess or Bertram.

  “Your only choice is to give Demas a chance. Perhaps he will ignite something within you that you have been searching for.”

  “Perhaps he will ignite a child inside me and kill me, too. Did my father ever think of that?” I knew Bertram had more sense than to answer my challenge. And in the end, what good would it have accomplished? Bertram wasn’t the one I was angry at. “I’m sorry.”

  “It’s all right, pet. These things hav
e a way of working themselves out. You’ll see.” He gave my shoulder a reassuring squeeze and left.

  I prayed Bertram was right, but what if he wasn’t? I consoled myself with the knowledge that, at the very least, I had until the end of summer to try to change my circumstances. A marriage feast lasted several days. Despite my father’s apparent urgency to see me married, he would never hold a wedding feast now, especially with the memory of last year’s scarcity still fresh in everyone’s mind. A week of feasting for hundreds of people would completely deplete our winter stores. He would wait until the crops and game were plentiful and the weather fine for travel before shuffling me off to Demas. I had time.

  I turned to the small window. There was a lot of shouting outside, and the sound of approaching horses thundered through the courtyard. I leaned over the table and opened the shutters. People streamed through the gate. My brother, Edward, ran toward my cottage, his young face flushed.

  He burst through the door. “Avelynn, Avelynn, the Vikings are coming!” He ran to me and pulled on my dress.

  The last time Vikings had been seen in Somerset was more than twenty years ago, well before we were born. I looked at him for a moment. He was only nine and had a vivid imagination, but as I turned and watched everyone rushing for the hall, my heart quickened. I grabbed my cloak and let him lead me into the throngs of villagers.

  TWO

  My father and the king’s brother, Alfred, walked toward the great fire in the center of the hall and stopped. The light from the blaze cast their shadows back to the door, where they were followed directly by their greatest warriors, leaving a trail of reverence and dominion in their wake. Behind the men, several young women entered. I caught sight of Ealhswith’s brilliant smile and coppery hair and waved. She weaved her way through the press of people.

  I embraced her. “What are you doing here?”

  “I came to see you.” She looked around. “Your father was receiving us at the stables when the sentry at the gate told us the whole town was buzzing like a hagridden hornet’s nest. What’s going on?”